Yesterday I reached the maximum weight I allow myself to weigh and I was almost panicky. I ate lots of low-cal food and skipped everything with fat and sugar (or almost did), exercised, and was relieved this morning when I saw I lost like, 1 pound? I know this sounds silly. But I have always been slender except when I was a “puppy fat” baby and after spending 3 months and a half in a wheelchair (I was very bloated). And yet I am all for fat acceptance and pride, it’s just that…not for me.