You know how much I like making and sharing fan art on Instagram. Today I want to present Samara Rose who suffers from a painful chronic illness, and yet is very brave and works on her own wonderful style.
This is the video explaining her condition:
And if you want to follow her:
You may have noticed that I am no longer hiding my face on this blog. The reason is, I do not break any rule of the public service as a civil servant. I also write this blog in English and never use my real name, address or mention where I work.
I did my nails at last. Nothing much thrilling to talk about. I go to the sales and eat out from time to time. Haven’t been able to reach my ill friend for a while, I try to tell myself that’s she’s just on holiday.
I have bad dreams, some more pleasant, I have bad moods, then better ones, I’m just alive, that’s it.
I keep losing weight. It’s not too bad ATM but I must stop this loss and manage to at least maintain. I have lost my apetite; but getting sick won’t help her heal. I would give my life for hers but it’s not the way it works. On the contrary, I must – and I promised her to – take care of myself and cling to life, just like she too, promised me to.
I dressed alternative/personal style though I wasn’t willing to at first. But taking care of me starts with taking care of my appearance. I even put some make up.
I love her so much, I don’t want to lose her.
Sometimes you need to focus on mundane things like doing your nails to feel a lil bit better and think less about what’s hurting you.
I literally harrassed a former teach and friend on the FB instant message because she would not answer and I thought she was mad at me for whatever reason. She was just über busy! I apologized using the word “sorry” 3 times in the same sentence and I am going to give her a break for a while.