Hiatus

I know, it’s been a while, almost one month. What’s happened?

Well, my friend with the brain tumor had to be hospitalized because of her new treatment. She texted me she was out and better a few days ago. Phew. I was really scared.

My former teacher on Facebook doesn’t want to answer any of my private messages or comments anymore. I felt sad, I cried, I felt a heavy weight on my chest…no explanation. I did all I could to reach out to her, but it’s no longer up to me. I have to accept the situation.

I have started taking singing lessons! I did so when I was 15, but I decided I had to train and practise again with someone qualified, and she genuinely thinks I have some potential.

I’m seing Mr Handsome (my physiotherapist) for massages after suffering from groin and back pain for months.

I have another job in sight, part time, other workplace.

In other words, life goes on!

Brit lady at our house

So glad to practise my English with my mum’s lovely long term British penfriend!

Pity she only stays for a week.

I have a Youtube channel

I don’t know how I managed to delete one of my Youtube channels while trying to swap brand channel but anyway, starting from scratch, losing my 16 suscribers (LOL, yes I know) and beginning with only 2.

Fan art : 4 people to follow

1.Ana Cadence A hippie-hypster-seapunk-ethnico style and an artsy soul from Australia

2.Lovely Lor One of the most kawaii girls in the world!

3.Stef Sanjati A gorgeous trans woman, advocacy of LGBTQ and makeup artist

4.Sylwia A geeky clever horror writer and model from Poland

Why hast thou forsaken me?

I kept in touch with a teacher who has always meant a lot to me but these last weeks – or months? – she has been ignoring me on social media, never answering my PM, or saying she was busy but still posting tons of stuff on her page and answering to her OTHER friends.

Yesterday night I felt the need to draw something out of this frustratring and saddening situation and I don’t know if she saw it and read it but she hasn’t answered yet.

My precious digital life

Like I said I don’t meet friends flesh and blood very often so to compensate I tend to have lots of digital interactions with people from the Net.

The girl I told you about who came to visit me with her bf is a long term digital relationship. I met her through her blog 10 years ago and she was very genuine in her writing, maybe a little bit too much personal on the WWW, but so was I at the time. We’ve met IRL no more than 5 times but we often keep in touch.

And then there are people who are more or less famous – mainly on Youtube – and seem charismatic and they help you learn and think about society issues/topics through their own personal experience: Religion, depression, trans life, alternative fashion…and it’s very nurturing to the mind and to the soul. Sometimes I like to draw fan art for them, like trans (M to F) girl Stef.Sanjati who I have been following for a while now.

All these people who don’t know me are part of my life, not as friends but as role models and inspirational individuals.

Nostalgia

Pathetic

When you have a shitty day because you realized someone you like joined Facebook and they don’t answer your friend request.

Going out, meetin friends, and drawing

After meeting my BFF a few days ago, yesterday I went out with ma fée and her boyfriend.

When we don’t use her name to keep her anonymous we use her nickname ma fée (my fairy) because she does look like a pixie creature.

We walked my dog, went to the town center, ate in an Asian restaurant, walked in my hometown and took pics, went back to my house to chat around a coffee. A pleasant time it was. Alas they live very far and only come on holiday in my region every 2 years. Our relationship will continue on the world wide web as usual.

Apart from that, I am quite proud of these 2 sketches made WITHOUT A BLUEPRINT:

Good news

After agonizing about my friend’s health whilst not getting any contact with her, I eventually managed to join her on the phone yesterday. She’s entered a new medical protocol that seems to have been working so far, so fingers crossed.

As for me I’m getting in touch with friends again: my BFF and I met in my hometown a few days ago and on thursday a girl friend I met like 10 years ago on the WWW who I haven’t seen for a while is coming with her boyfriend.