You know how much I like making and sharing fan art on Instagram. Today I want to present Samara Rose who suffers from a painful chronic illness, and yet is very brave and works on her own wonderful style.
This is the video explaining her condition:
And if you want to follow her:
I don’t wanna write about how sick leave is still necessary and the thought of going back to work disturbing (aka nightmares).
I have nothing interesting to write about home alone days reading or watching videos.
So here are four outfits from the first four months of the year.
You may have noticed that I am no longer hiding my face on this blog. The reason is, I do not break any rule of the public service as a civil servant. I also write this blog in English and never use my real name, address or mention where I work.
First of all, I will begin this post by telling everyone that I am not a “real” Goth, because I don’t really like the music and according to many Goths I talked to, music and the scene are mainly what make you Goth. That being said, I could be considered as a “Nu goth“, someone who dresses gothy but doesn’t listen to the music.
Yes I like corsets, lace, velvet, black velvet, burgundy velvet, spikes, skulls; I also like the comic character “Nemi”, horror films and Halloween. I know Evanescence and Within Temptation are not Goth bands but metal bands, I read enough of The Goth Bible to know that Christian Death, Siousie Sioux, Bauhaus…are Goth bands, but I don’t like their music and I won’t force myself into listening to it to feel “Goth enough”.
That being said, let’s go back to my title: How Goth can be a positive thing? Indeed, too many people believe that Goth subculture is about self harm, depression and suicide, Death worship or worse, Devil worship.
I’ve been through hell, really: I’ve been suffering from depression, anxiety, social phobia, bullying, possibly borderline personality disorder, spent time in a psych ward, tried to kill myself several times.
But this has NEVER had to do with my involvement in the Goth subculture; instead, wearing dark clothes with skulls and spikes helped me express my pain in another way than self-harming. Watching horror movies was a way to increase adrenaline without putting myself in danger. Nemi is very funny, in a sarcastic way, I had a good time reading the comic books. Halloween fills me with joy and energy, I decorate the house, dress up to welcome the trick or treaters at my door…
When I started recovering after being stuck in a wheelchair due to a 2-storey fall, the first thing I wanted to do was to put on my black and red Queen of Darkness long skirt, a black velvet top and get my streaks dyed red again.
I HAVE NEVER worshipped any kind of evil entity; I don’t belong to a religion, but I believe in the Divine, a universal energy of Light and unconditional love.
To me, Goth is a way to express my darker creativity without harming myself or anyone else.
It’s the weekend (well not for much longer now) and away with the corporate dress code.
Hello punk-goth attires!
Let’s be honest, I can’t dress Goth or head-to-toe Lolita on my workplace.
I started my first working days with classic clothes, with a very little touch of vintage:
Vintage/modest rockabilly works perfectly well in an office. I play with hairbands and headbows.
Today I tried a casual lolita look. The frills are ok when they are only at the top or the bottom of the outfit.
I like the challenge of keeping part of my style but fitting in a non-creative workplace.