1st day of work is tomorrow. I took a warm shower to relax and to not have to wash early in the morning. I try not to worry even if there is a dispute between me and the administration. I try to control my thoughts and emotions, I repeat myself that I decide which state I want to be in, worried or relaxed, stressed or serene. I am not sure I decide. I want to believe I do. That I have control. One thing’s for sure, I will feel really, really bad if I focus on anxious and negative thoughts. So I do my best not to.