I used to tell myself that I’d rather not draw than draw something unperfect. WTF? (I also thought once that my past had too many imperfections in it to keep my life going but it’s a whole new story). Now I keep every single sketch I make. I practise as much as I can and if the outcome is great, well, good for me, if not, let’s try again. The act of improving oneself is at least as much important as the improvement, if not more!
I can’t draw at the moment. I can only write, but my prose isn’t great, and take photos, but I am an amateur. Just as if nothing I do is worth the pain if it hasn’t any value. But who thinks so? I am going to keep writing and take photographs because I enjoy it.
Thinking in a positive way is great.
Trying to get rid of the negative thoughts is great.
But sometimes asserting positive sentences won’t work on you if you suffer from severe depression, anxiety or phobias.
It is OK to listen to sad songs, they can help you push out the sadness that is inside you. I used to sing that kind of songs and it was like expressing all my pain away. It is also OK to write about how you feel to heal your wounds. Or to draw the monsters that torture you if you have drawing skills. Or to moan in therapy.
However it is good to also try and spend time with people who are fine and will assert positive things about you. Usually, when your self-esteem is really, really low, it is easier to believe good friends’ positive words about you than your own positive assertions. It is faith more than the assertions that help you get in a positive mindset. When you have gained strength and have started feeling better, positive thinking and higher self-esteem will become natural to you.
So, to summarize, don’t blame yourself for not being able to be and think “positive”. Express yourself first.
Everybody feels like shit once in a while.
Sometimes the old negative thoughts go through my mind again. But the new thing is I fight them. I don’t wallow into “I’m not good enough” or “my life sucks” thoughts. I convince myself I’m just feeling vulnerable at the moment and the thoughts are not objective. I try to count my blessings. Think about what I’m grateful for. And then I feel less shitty and frustrated. But most of all I tell myself: I’m going nowhere with negative thoughts. They make me useless and depressed. Lashing myself won’t make me a better person and seeing my life as shitty won’t improve it. SO I HAVE NO OTHER CHOICE THAN WORKING WITH POSITIVE THOUGHTS.
Too many people committed suicide because of bullying.
Well you should NEVER EVER feel bad about what the bullies say to you because THEY ARE WRONG and you ARE NOT THEIR PROPERTY. You do not belong to their opinion, vision, point of view. You belong to LIFE, and no one can decide what YOU AND YOUR LIFE ARE WORTH. No one’s opinion is superior, no one is superior in this fucking world. We all pee, poo, fart, and fucking kick the bucket in the end. So no one is here to dictate their law and rule over YOUR LIFE.